There’s been a lot of debate about women’s rights, and as a founder and CEO of two technology companies, I can confidently say my journey would not have been possible without the reproductive rights I’ve had. We all come from mothers, and protecting women’s rights isn’t just about fairness—it’s necessary to build a stronger and more resilient economy.
My husband and I married in our twenties. I always knew I wanted to be a mother, but I was also a practical and ambitious engineer. My parents were refugees of the Vietnam War. They came to America with nothing, thanks to the generosity and sponsorship of a Lutheran priest. Over the past 50 years, they worked tirelessly to give my siblings and me a better life, and I am forever grateful for their sacrifices. However, growing up in a poor immigrant family, I witnessed the stress and constant arguments over money. Summers were especially hard. Unable to afford childcare or camps, my siblings and cousins and I were left alone at home with strict instructions: “Don’t open the door, don’t answer the phone, here’s my number.”
Like my parents, I wanted to give my children a better life than I had, and the only way I could do that was by controlling the timing of motherhood. Birth control allowed me to prevent pregnancy during the years I focused on earning my engineering degree, working as a construction engineer, founding a startup, and leading it as CEO.
I was able to co-found and build my first startup, PlanGrid, over nearly a decade because family planning gave me control over when to start a family. I chose to have children when I could afford it and when I was ready to give them the time and attention they deserved. I became a mom while leading PlanGrid, serving as CEO and interim vice president of engineering while pregnant, and breastfeeding during our Series C fundraising. By the time I started my second startup, TigerEye, I had my third child. We closed our seed funding when I was eight months pregnant.
Every parent knows the first few months of a baby’s life are incredibly challenging. Newborns have tiny stomachs and develop so rapidly that they need to be fed every 2-3 hours, day and night, leaving parents severely sleep-deprived. While the U.S. doesn’t guarantee maternity leave, I was fortunate that PlanGrid offered three months of paid parental leave to its employees. I deeply empathize with all mothers, especially those who must return to work right after giving birth or undergoing a C-section. I can't imagine how they manage without immense pain and sacrifice. I recognize I’ve worked my way to a position of privilege where I have the financial means and medical support to most effectively deal with the hardships of motherhood. The majority of the country does not have that.
I experienced a miscarriage during my second pregnancy. While at work with my team, I felt something slip out of me. Beyond the emotional devastation of losing a pregnancy, there are immediate physical treatments required to prevent complications and infections. Fortunately, I had health insurance and access to good women’s health doctors and nurses, allowing me to receive the best care during one of the most difficult times in my life. I was prescribed Misoprostol to help my body release the remaining tissue, followed by a surgical procedure to remove what was left. Thanks to reproductive rights, my doctors were able to provide timely, necessary care without legal concerns. With the Supreme Court’s decision to overturn Roe vs Wade, many states now have heavy restrictions around prescribing prostaglandin drugs like Misoprostol, as the treatment I was given to maintain my health is similar to early-stage abortion procedures. Some states have gone even further, classifying Misoprostol as a controlled dangerous substance, similar to narcotics.
I believe true equality in the workplace starts with equality at home. My husband has been my greatest supporter, both as my partner in life and as my cofounder. Together, we’ve built two startups and raised three children, all while maintaining an equal partnership at home. He respects my rights as a woman, and we share household and childcare duties equally. This balance allows me to lead as a CEO while ensuring our family thrives. I know we’re a rare couple who work together professionally, but we are also a good example of how shared responsibility makes being parents and founders possible.
It is challenging to be a mom and a founder. The only effective leverage I have had is by taking care of myself physically, so I can maintain the health and sustained energy required to take care of everything in my life. If we want to keep women in the workforce, we must recognize the biological differences and support the unique reproductive care women need, regardless of whether or not they have had children. I want our sons and daughters to have the same opportunities — and that starts with equality in every sense.
In a recent LinkedIn post I caused an immune-system-like response when I described the mid-market as “no man's land.” Some folks who build for the mid-market wanted to know what I meant.
It takes very different skills to build for and compete in SMB versus Enterprise. The mid-market is the transitional segment between the two. Of course, businesses, including TigerEye, build and sell into the mid-market. I just believe it should not be a startup's initial target market. I define mid market as companies with 100 to 999 employees, but how companies draw their mid-market lines will vary depending on their segmentation needs.
In my experience, mid market has three distinct flavors:
Ramping: Mid-market companies that still behave like SMBs.
Graduating: Mid-market companies in the process of, or those that have already spent millions in preparation for, scaling to the next level and aspiring to match their enterprise counterparts.
Autopilot: Mid-market companies that have hit a wall in terms of total addressable market and rapid growth.
If you want to sell to the first two mid-market categories I've defined above, it's best to pick one outer lane first, either SMB or Enterprise, which will automatically include either ramping or graduating mid market, respectively.
What we don’t want to do is compete on two fronts, against well-resourced incumbents on one side and hungry startups on the other. Additionally, these different segments have different buying behaviors, so it's best to focus and excel at selling to one segment, refining the sales process before adding more complexity to your business.
Ramping mid-market companies, which have recently graduated into this segment, often experience growing pains. As a result, they are not afraid to make decisions quickly, and adopt new technology to make their days less painful. Most startups can successfully build for ramping mid-market companies by solving a single pain point really well then broadening their feature set later on. In most industries, there are usually more potential customers in this segment at lower average contract values. For these ramping mid-market companies, features such as freemium and trial offerings, along with in-product tool tips that promote self-onboarding, are must-haves.
In contrast, graduating mid-market companies have more decision-makers across multiple departments, with a greater number of internal processes. These factors often create a kind of red tape that can slow down the evaluation and deployment of new technology. To successfully sell to this group, there are minimum table stakes requirements that you have to meet to get past the front door. This includes security and compliance certifications like SOC2 Type2 and ISO27001 and ISO270002. Additional requirements may include role-based access control (RBAC) and admin consoles for the non-user buyer. These technology deployments are usually departmentwide or companywide, which will require some form of customer success and/or professional services. At five-to seven-figure average deal sizes, companies will expect hands-on training, especially if customization has been built to make their environment work.
Autopilot mid-market companies often have sufficient revenue to place them in the mid-market segment, but their growth has slowed. Typically, these companies are in cash conservation mode, focusing on strategizing new ways to accelerate their growth. When a company faces high-risk challenges like slow growth, it will be more cautious about every penny spent.
To build for the mid-market, early-stage companies need to determine who they want to serve: SMB or Enterprise. It's all about focus and strategically choosing the sweet spot. This doesn't imply ignoring the mid-market's potential; it simply shouldn't be the starting point.
]]>Companies are bought, they are not sold. Buyers typically pursue acquisitions to:
In December 2018, Autodesk acquired PlanGrid for $875 million for all the reasons above. I worked at Autodesk, assisting in integration for fifteen months in the newly formed Autodesk Construction Group.
Integrating a startup into another company is like jumping into freezing cold water — there is an initial shock to the entire system. As founders, it was important that we took care of our team and ensured our products continued to work well for customers.
This post is for anyone who has a signed LOI or term sheet with an acquirer and is looking for lessons learned on how to navigate the new world — what to anticipate and what to try to avoid. For folks who are talking to corp dev, read this. (For founders who want to sell their company right now: It is mentally, physically and emotionally taxing to live two competing realities — to envision two competing futures for your startup at the same time. Your job is to preserve optionality and make all options (including running your startup standalone) available if you want to entertain an M&A conversation. Do not risk slowing down in execution and growth to talk to corp dev).
Lesson #1: Vision
After an acquisition, most companies prioritize product integration as their top concern. In our case, this was true as well. However, true product integration is often a lengthy and unsatisfying first priority, as it can take years to complete if it ever happens. Unless the architecture is exactly the same, and products somehow snap together nicely, the result is often a hodgepodge of incompatible products. The costliest challenge of focusing on product integration as the number one priority is that it overlooks more critical needs. The top priority should have been establishing and aligning on a shared vision.
In 2019, we needed vision from leadership, and it would not come for several quarters. It wasn't because of a lack of desire; there are just a lot of dependencies at a large company, and it takes time to run any decision up the flagpole.In the early days, our teams, revenue targets, incentives and sales processes were not integrated. This led to construction customers receiving multiple sales calls from different teams within the same company, resulting in ARR churn and ARR shifting between product lines.
Takeaway: Vision is the foundation of all conversations and execution. Clear communication from leadership on vision brings clarity to what we’re building together — and how. Vision gives the blueprint for marketing, comms, sales and support to have productive conversations with our customers.After the acquisition, a team member expressed, "We never had the chance to mourn PlanGrid's death." Within eighteen months, approximately 40% of our team left. Some believed we had faltered in the market and were absorbed by our competitor, while others saw it as an opportunity for new leadership roles and more direct reports.
We had four separate startup orgs within Autodesk Construction wondering how everyone would fit together. When reporting structures are not clearly defined, some individuals self-select out, while others start to become more competitive.Anytime there is an org change and new reporting structure there will be turbulence, and we experienced this emotional turbulence at full scale. Retention packages were put in place to retain the strong performers, many of whom have had amazing careers at Autodesk. I did my best to motivate the team and set them up for success before I passed the baton.
Takeaway: If your handcuffs are multi-year, be selfish about how you distribute retention packages. Prioritize the teammates who you can’t live without in the new world. There will be a shock to the system and it is best to make decisions promptly, communicate them quickly and get back to execution.Lesson #3: Go-to-market motion
With the newly acquired startups came a dozen new products for the new construction division to sell. The company hired a consultant to help enable and train our folks on how to message and cross-sell. Meanwhile, incentives were put in place to encourage sales reps to cross-sell all construction products for the first year.
What surprised me the most was how little cross-selling happened despite the opportunity to make more money. Top sales reps told me that what prevented them from selling other products was that it would delay deals. They’d rather stick to the script and sell products they were familiar with.We needed hands-on, in-house leadership to learn how to sell a newly formed platform and coach the team on how to do it. The sales team would eventually excel at representing the different product lines, but I left before I saw it happen.
Takeaway: There are certain training programs where consultant trainers are good options: public speaking, empathy, and industry standard sales methodology such as MEDDPICC. And then there are mission critical enablement and training that must be owned by the company and leadership.Lesson #4: Back-office systems
During the merger, we had to drop all our point solutions and startup tools to turn on all the enterprise “winners.” We wasted hours on slow, cumbersome software and were thrown into confusing legacy workflows. The new tools we were given not only made us less productive, but also made us continually frustrated and angry. We didn’t have software to help us strategically run our business. This is what inspired us to build our new company TigerEye.
Meanwhile, the team had an immune system response to our new tools. Another acquired startup refused to turn on the systems and would fight headquarters for another year. Despite the intense need to communicate, we couldn’t see each other's calendars to schedule time to talk.Takeaway: Back-office systems integration is boring -– it’s blocking and tackling — but to function as one team, we must use the same tools. We made the right decision to act quickly on system integrations, but we lost valuable teammates. Great people want to use great tools to do their work.
#5: Product IntegrationIt is almost impossible to start product integration without first choosing the engineering leader, defining the engineering culture and uniting the engineering team. Without leadership, any conversation on whose architecture or tech stack or login system is better will likely trigger immediate in-fighting. Assuming a single engineering leader is now in charge, the brass tacks will include what libraries to use, design-system choices, dev tool vendor selection and integration of each overlapping product functionality.
Our construction division prioritized integrating login systems, because it’s a terrible experience to make a customer log into different product lines.Takeaway: Unification of the engineering team and products is gnarly and challenging. And the larger the team the harder it is. Put strong leaders in place and prioritize their retention because most great engineering teams prefer building new products than integration work.
Final thoughtsFor folks who are considering acquiring another company, there may be real strategic benefits. But it also comes with a hefty tax. Beyond the cost of the acquisition itself, the integration process can be time-consuming and challenging, and it often results in a thrashy transition period, and several products that might not fully integrate. But this turbulence can be navigated smoothly with clear vision.
Build something people want and believe in the power of your product. People can tell if you’re trying to sell them garbage. And people love buying products from trusted partners.
Establish a clear customer definition and make sure everyone on your team knows it.
Put yourself in your customer’s shoes — understand their fears and desires; keep all of these in mind.
Find the biggest pain point your customer has; focus all product and sales conversations around solving this pain point for them.
Identify users, buyers, deployers, and trainers.The larger the company, the more likely these will be different people and departments and you will need to sell to (or around) all of them.
Learn how money flows in your customer's organization. What budget line items can be used to pay for your product?
It is hard for teams to create a new budget that doesn’t exist in their financial plan, but not impossible for something that has excellent return on investment.
Create a database of companies and users who should use your product, then talk to them, and document every interaction.
In the early days, use a spreadsheet for as long as you can to track customers until your life sucks so bad you don’t mind it sucking a little more to deploy Salesforce.
Midmarket is no man’s land. Is your product’s sweet spot in SMB or Enterprise?
Slice your market into different perspectives so you can understand the potential levers for growth. Consider segmentation by geographic regions, customer profiles, and industries.
Plot your customers onto a cross section where x-axis is how much they pay you and y-axis is growth potential. Prioritize your time and investment with everyone who shows up in high growth potential.
Do not let anyone waste your time or energy. Disqualify the tire kickers quickly.
Get prospects into the right swim lanes. Is this a $50 deal or a $50,000 deal? Allocate time proportionally to customer potential.
Never leave a meeting without knowing the next step. Say: “What are the next steps before you can make a decision?”
Lead the customer. Help them organize at every step. Help them in ways that don’t scale.
Shrink your sales cycle every chance you get. If a prospect asks you to call them next week, call them on a Monday, not Friday. If a prospect asks you to touch base next month, reach out in week 3 not week 4.
In general, time kills all deals.
Listen more than you speak.
Track and be curious about every objection. These are learning moments for you. Do not be defensive.
When your customer is talking to you, they’re not talking to your competitor.
Don’t be afraid to test out pricing. You can always change it later and grandfather your existing customers in on the old plan for some generous duration.
When presenting pricing: present the facts, stop talking, listen and watch body language from your prospects. There is no need to justify how much you charge.
Ask for their business: “What do you need to sign today?”
Go towards where it hurts, ask the questions you’re scared to hear the answers to.
Keep a healthy paranoia. Deals are not done until money is in your bank account.
Review and document every win. There should be patterns including the number of and type of correspondences, what resonated, and the people involved. These patterns should become the foundation of your sales process and playbook.
Our new startup, TigerEye, is remote-first. Ten years ago while at PlanGrid, I wouldn't have believed it was possible to run a company remotely, but a worldwide lockdown showed me that a better quality of work and life can be achieved. With good communication architecture and well-defined rules of engagement, decisions can be made quickly on Zoom or a phone call [1]. There are trade-offs to remote work, but to us, the benefits outweigh the negatives.
The biggest fear of remote work is that employees won't actually work — a very real possibility. According to a recent Microsoft survey, some 85% of leaders say the shift to hybrid work means they can't tell if their workers are actually doing any work. But there are ways to derisk this. I believe that remote work is available to startups in a way that is not an option for larger companies, making it a competitive advantage in recruiting and retaining the best talent.
Startups have fewer people and can move together as a unit more effortlessly. Bigger companies can be burdened by layers of mediocre middle management, making the entire org ineffective. Mandating that employees work from the office may give leadership a feeling of control, but whether having employees actually sitting in the office increases productivity or improves company culture is something that only team members can know. In my experience, the best managers know exactly what their team is working on and how much they’re producing regardless of where they sit.
Millions of women left the workforce during the pandemic to take care of their families, and many have not yet returned due to the lack of social infrastructure for childcare or eldercare in our country. To attract talented women back into the workforce we must remove the old-school belief that good work can only be done in an expensive office. As a mother of three, I wouldn't be able to achieve what I do if I had to sit in traffic and be in an office all day.
This holds true for many of my highly skilled colleagues who also have childcare and/or eldercare responsibilities. They work from home, excel in their roles, pay taxes and can handle any life challenges that come their way. And the data backs this too — McKinsey surveyed 13,000 office workers in six countries and found that those who have confidence in their working abilities, children, and a mortgage to pay, no longer want to commute to sit at a desk and do essentially the same job.
This is how we ensure remote work is successful at TigerEye:Everyone on the team is excellent at communication – It is really easy to miscommunicate when working remotely, so we look for teammates who have the ability to write and speak directly and answer questions simply. Everyone writes like they talk. We’ve all agreed to move long Slack threads to a more productive phone call.
Company information is documented simply and easy to find – An important variable to effectiveness is ensuring that the whole team can find information they need quickly. Since we can’t walk over to a colleague’s desk and get answers, we make sure our Google Drive and Gitlab is organized and well-documented. It does take a Google Drive and Gitlab cop, and we put our most detail oriented and vocal person on this (CTO, founder).
We share core working hours and embrace time flexibility – With our global team, we have six overlapping core working hours, so we know exactly when we are available to each other everyday. Beyond those hours, we embrace time flexibility, so employees can devote their most energetic hours to their most intellectually demanding tasks and also to take care of personal matters (without taking PTO or sick days).
We meet in-person and work remotely together – There is no substitute for in-person connection, so we do it at least once per month. While saving on office costs [2], we invest in travel so we can look each other in the eyes. Once a month our Dev team gets together in-person. There are also regional in-person workdays (e.g., Bay Area folks get together once a month). Every two months, our Go-to-Market team regroups in-person. We also offer WeWork passes for anyone who needs to get out of the home environment. When in-person, we make sure to eat together, because something magical happens when we break bread as a team.
Recurring meetings with purpose – One of our commitments to each other is speaking openly about the hard things. We can be honest, disagree, and be respectful at the same time, and we carry this commitment into all our meetings. Our weekly recurring meetings include All Hands (alignment, lessons learned, open questions and discussions), Whiteboarding (for team problem-solving), Customer Updates (covering all aspects related to prospects and customers), and Show and Tell (providing progress updates).
Culture of wholeheartedness (copied directly from our core values) – Life is hard even for the most fortunate of us. Building a company while living life will be challenging. The best we can do is to be wholehearted in everything we do. Be wholehearted in our personal lives. Be wholehearted when we are working. When we split our hearts into multiple pieces in multiple directions, we will get overwhelmed and be mediocre at everything.
[1] Remote work may not be feasible for professions in industries like construction or manufacturing, as their roles often have hands-on responsibilities.
[2] PlanGrid’s 2011-2019 all-in office cost revolved around 10% of total opex spend. All-in cost includes rent, utilities, insurance, tax, food, security, vending, cleaning, facilities team and more.
I often receive inquiries from female founders and execs on how to announce their pregnancy to investors and/or board directors. It appears that very little is written about how to talk about one of the biggest moments in many people’s lives. So I’ve created this FAQ in case it’s helpful to a parent.
I am fundraising right now, should I tell potential investors that I am pregnant?
I fundraised while I was eight months pregnant. This was during the COVID-19 pandemic, so most conversations were happening via phone calls and Zoom. After I got the offer, and before I signed the term sheet, I disclosed that we would be taking maternity leave in a month. The offer did not evaporate and our investor told us to take the time we needed. In general, I would not do business with someone who isn’t going to support me as a mother and human.
When did you tell your board about your pregnancy?
I was nervous to tell my board that I was pregnant. I didn’t know how they would take the news, because I am also married to my cofounder — which meant that two founder/execs/board directors would be on parental leave at the same time.
At 21 weeks, after the second-trimester ultrasound and prenatal tests confirmed my pregnancy was viable, I told my board I was pregnant. It was also around the same time my baby belly started to show.
How did you tell your board?
I made the announcement in person at the beginning of a board meeting. Instead of calling each one individually, I found it easier to make the announcement all at once. When I told my board, they had huge smiles and looked genuinely happy for us. In hindsight, if their reaction was anything less, it would have been a red flag. But luckily we had no jerks on our board.
What did you prepare when you told your board?
The only thing I prepared was who would serve as interim CEO. I had selected my CFO to serve as our interim CEO during my upcoming leave. It is possible that your board might have a difference in opinion on who should lead as interim CEO, but it’s important for the CEO to lead the board on this decision.
What was the maternity leave arrangement you agreed to with your board?
I told the board I would take four weeks off even though our startup had a three-month parental-leave policy. I ended up needing more time to heal and went back to work at six weeks postpartum.
How did you announce your maternity leave to the team?For our internal team, I announced my pregnancy and parental leave schedule and shared that our CFO would be in charge. I joked that they shouldn’t burn the place down while I am away. I also had a written maternity leave plan on Google Docs, which everyone had access to, that itemized the goals I expected each leader to see through while I was gone. Each department leader and I created these goals together to ensure we were aligned across the business.
What would you do differently?
I went back to work as soon as I could because I was scared of what others might think of me as a new mother and CEO, perhaps because of my own insecurities, and perhaps because of the societal norms ingrained in me. I pressured myself into proving that I was as dedicated to PlanGrid as I always have been. If I could do it all over again, I would take the full three months off to be with my baby. I’d also use that time to take care of myself and be a good example to my team — and to demonstrate trust that they had my back and were covering for me, which they were.I could have also been more creative about my ramp back into work. At my friend’s company, they had a phased-return policy that asked new mothers and fathers to come back to work one day the first week, two days the second week, three days the third week and so on until they were back to a full five-day work week. During the first three weeks back, they were not to lead any projects or try to cram a full week's work into a shorter work week.
I get asked for fundraising advice often. Here’s a cleaned up version of my answer:
1.
Understand that VCs have their own investors, and their top priority is
delivering a substantial return on investment to their LPs.
2. Early
stage investors evaluate thousands of startups, listening to hundreds
of pitches each year, but only invest in a fraction of them.
3. Investors are skilled negotiators, so avoid playing games with them.
4.
The best investors can discern your intentions with remarkable
accuracy, a valuable skill in their line of work. Avoid posturing or
lying to yourself about your startup’s purpose and impact.
5. When you hear a “no”, move on.
6. When you hear a “yes”, know that the deal is not done until money is in your bank account.
7.
In general, time kills all deals. So timebox fundraising and stick to
it emotionally and practically. Return to building and talking to users
even if you haven't secured a term sheet after the predetermined period.
8. Fundraising is just a financing event; don't become infatuated with it or let it lead you into a state of depression.
9. Fundraising is not an indication of success or failure, it is an indication that you now own less of your company.
10. If you’re not in 100% fundraising mode, don’t talk to VCs (unless they're good friends or family).
This article previously ran in TechCrunch+
I previously served as the CEO board director at PlanGrid, and as an independent board director for two startups. I believed in the leadership and products at those companies, but I resigned from both startup boards because I couldn’t bear sitting through another company’s board meeting. I wrote an article in TechCrunch+ to offer advice on how to run an effective board meeting.
Time is a fixed resource. As a board director, it's crucial to be helpful to the leadership team with the limited time we have. Otherwise, attending board meetings becomes pointless. Concise materials can make board meetings more effective and leave room for useful conversations.
After Initialized and Next47 co-led TigerEye’s Series A, and a formal board of directors was put in place, this is what my cofounder and I wrote to them:
Dear Board,
From the start at TigerEye, we promised ourselves we would use our experience to our advantage by making better decisions across all vectors everyday. “What did we do that we never want to do again?” One thing we’d like to never do is the three-hour, too-in-the-weeds, non-strategic board meeting. Here is a memo we wrote instead of preparing a board deck. We hope this memo gives you the punchline on the business and how we’re thinking about the future, allowing the majority of our time together for meaningful conversations.
With gratitude,
Tracy & Ralph
We discuss what we accomplished in the last three months as a team and what we’re doing in the next three. Then it's an open discussion where we push ourselves to have the hard discussions on worst-case scenarios and how to de-risk against them. These conversations typically revolve around the competitive market landscape, our direction as a company, current economic conditions and a realistic check-in on how much money we’re burning and our ability to execute.
TigerEye’s board meeting is one hour. The short length of our meetings has a lot to do with our size — we’re an early-stage startup. But I still plan to keep it concise and productive even as we grow. I’ve led and attended over a hundred hours of board meetings, and I never want to dread my own board meeting again. I also don’t want any founder to have that feeling. I have made many mistakes, and now I am sharing lessons on how to generate better board material and give more effective board meetings:Eliminate 80-plus-page board decks: Every board deck I’ve made and seen is more than 80 pages long. I am not exaggerating. The challenge with this much content is there is a finite amount of minutes of attention we get from the board, and only so much information can be absorbed in one sitting. If there is truly that much material and information that needs to be communicated, consider sending out regular email updates, or having one-on-ones with the board, to keep them updated outside of the board meeting. The goal of the board materials is to quickly get your board up to speed on your assessment of the business, shine a light on the problems and get their help strategically.
Show where the business hurts the most: It is important to celebrate the hard work of the team. But I’ve seen many board decks that over-index on wins and don’t focus enough on the losses. In my experience, everytime I ignored where it hurt in the business, it cost me triple the amount of time, because problems tend to compound — and do not go away on their own.
Never bury bad news: I once experienced a situation where, with fifteen minutes remaining in a board meeting, the founders told us something that would completely change the business and put it at risk. We needed at least an hour to talk through our options, but everyone was out of time and steam at that point.
Eliminate the showboat: As a CEO who wanted to give each department head autonomy, I would structure the board decks with open spaces for each executive to provide updates. The challenge with that approach is that we ended up with an incohesive, showboaty board deck where each department leader used their allotted slides to brag about their teams’ wins and defend their roles. Instead, bring your board on your journey of wins. If a big deal closes, text your board or email them as it happens. Have a good cadence of communications with the board so they feel included. This will also help to cut down on the victory lap sections in the board materials.
Use existing artifacts: At my last company, it would take a few weeks to generate new graphs and artifacts for the board decks, and I’d later present them in All Hands. I now realize this was wrong. If we do our jobs as leaders, the whole company already knows how we think of our business and understands near- and long-term goals and how we are working hard at pushing the company forward together. A good way to capture and communicate the direction of the company is to have the team create artifacts that highlight the business, so they’re brought along early — and present those materials to the board.
Allow for closed-door sessions: A valuable lesson I learned from being on a board is the importance of closed-door sessions. The CEO held a beginning closed-door session to go over legal matters without their executive team. Then, there were two closed sessions at the end, one with the CEO and board and one with only the independent and investor directors. This gave the board space to debrief, discuss how to be most helpful, and create an action plan. One of the directors would then follow up with the CEO. Closed-door sessions allow for open and honest communication and can lead to more effective decision-making.
The responsibilities of a board at a startup can vary depending on the size and stage of the company, but generally, the board is responsible for overseeing the company's management and ensuring the company is run in the best interests of its stakeholders (shareholders, employees, customers and the wider community). Keep board decks short so all parties can focus conversations on the long-term sustainability and success of your company, which includes managing finances effectively. By doing so, the board can contribute significantly to the growth and success of the startup.
I had the privilege of leading PlanGrid to $100M in ARR before I stepped down as CEO and passed the baton to Autodesk Construction. I’ve had years to dissect the mistakes I have made in my first startup, and I’ve now taken my lessons learned to TigerEye.
Regardless of what industry you build for, or where you are at in your startup’s growth towards a $100M journey, there are many things that will likely fail. This post breaks down PlanGrid’s key failure points and what I’ve learned from them. If these reflections help even one founder make one less mistake, I would consider this post worthwhile.Our failure points:
#1: Org structure and communication failureAs first-time founders we were too creative about organizational structure. We had a flat management hierarchy in the early years, and we bragged that we ran our startup like Star Trek — you were either in engineering or operations, and everyone reported to a founder. This was cute, until it quickly stopped working. People care about titles and career paths, and if you want to retain great people, you have to care about these things too.
In Year Three, we tripled from 30 to 90 people, then doubled the team to 180 a year later. Those were the most painful years, because we went from a high-execution team to one that felt like it was stuck in molasses. We didn’t know how to hire giants, so we recruited several mediocre managers who in turn recruited more mediocre people. Meanwhile, communication gets a lot harder with more people, and I did a poor job communicating the direction of the company. We had a first-mover advantage in a category we created but lost our position during these years of slow execution.Takeaways: Be creative on how you’re solving problems for your customer — don’t be creative about org structures. Hire a great HR leader as a business partner to help recruit and retain the right team, and architect a good communication flow. And remember that A players can recruit other A players, but B players usually end up recruiting C players.
#2: Internal conflictOur trickiest inflection point was hitting Dunbar’s number — at 150 people, everything went to chaos. Hierarchy is a factor. At 10, 20, or 30 people, everyone can report into a founder — at 150, just based on basic management ratios, there's now three to four degrees from the frontline team member to the founders.
Not feeling like a unified team becomes dangerous when we don’t hit revenue targets or product milestones. When there is a mismatch on velocity and performance, it’s easy for those who feel like they’re performing to blame any slowdown on everyone else. There are natural tensions between sales and marketing, support and product, and product and engineering, and everything becomes magnified with more people simply because communication gets harder.Another heartbreaking side effect with growth is that the people who helped get the company to its current success may not be the right people to grow it the next five years.
Takeaways: Fight for your company's core values. If you don’t like the ones you’ve written, rewrite them so you can live by them. Hire and fire by these core values. Anything less will send the signal that it’s all bullshit.#3: An executive not working out
My biggest mistake was hiring a big-public-company tech executive with a fancy resume who had never worked at a startup. And although everything in my gut told me that they were the wrong fit, I felt so underwater with work that I convinced myself that my life would suck less if they were just in the building.
The big tech exec came from a sweet life with an established brand, big budgets, unlimited perks and fully built-out recruiting, engineering, marketing, sales and customer success teams. Being at a startup is hard in a way that is almost indescribable to anyone who hasn’t experienced it. The only way a big tech exec can be successful at a small startup is if they had been at one before, and they willingly volunteer to roll up their sleeves and get in the trenches again.As we grew to nearly 500 people, we would have several versions of the executive bench. The best indicator of an executive’s success is that they have already done the thing you want them to do at exactly the same stage that you are in and want to grow to. With that said, I do believe a first-time executive with raw talent and a growth mindset can be successful. In my case, at my first startup, it felt risky to be learning on the job as a CEO and be surrounded by other leaders who were learning on the job as well. Luckily it worked out for us.
Another good indicator of how execs will be to work with is what their former colleagues, bosses and direct reports say about them. After hiring and firing several wrong VPs, I tripled the number of reference calls on any serious candidate. With over 10 references across the board — people who they have reported to, people who reported to them and their peers — you start to see a good picture of who they are and what it would be like to work with them.Here is a brief list of red flags on an executive who isn’t working out:
1. They frequently use the wrong pronoun “I” followed by “[contribution to the company]”.
2. You dread having 1-1s with them.
3. They blame you or their peers.
4. They complain laterally and downwards.
#4: Losing product market fit
Construction people used our software because they loved us. If construction folks were using our competitors' software it was because they were told to. In enterprise software, the best product doesn’t necessarily win, and there is a long trail of great enterprise software under tombstones.
Although we skipped the corporate buyer completely in the early years of PlanGrid to much success ($50M in ARR), in order to get to $100M in ARR, we needed to go upstream toward the enterprise segment and build products for the corporate buyers who would never touch our core product.Selling to the enterprise requires a series of features and products that have nothing to do with making the end-user happy. There is security red tape that the non-user buyer cares about: RBAC, SOC2 Type 2, ISO270002, Admin Consoles, SSO and more.
As more VCs came up with predictions around mobile technology disrupting the construction industry, hundreds of millions of dollars of venture capital was poured into our competitors. Copycats showed up around the world. Within a few years the category we created became a category that the corporate buyer cared about. Our product was not built for this buyer. They saw us as a point solution, which pushed us into a never-ending feature battle against platforms.Prior to PlanGrid’s acquisition, in my last years of leading the company, our growth slowed to high double percentage year-over-year growth while our competitor’s growth was rumored to be triple digits. We needed additional growth levers. We pushed towards internationalizing our product. We launched two new product lines with small scrum teams and slim budgets. Concurrently, we were knee-deep in technical debt and our Vice President of Engineering quit with no notice. These were rough years. But through hard work and great people who continued to pour their heart and soul into the company and customers, we hit almost all our milestones and secured the attention of Autodesk, our future acquirer.
Takeaways: It is completely possible to have product-market fit one year and lose it the next because the world, the market and the competition shifts over time. Always go towards where it hurts the most and try to fix that problem because it’s not going away. Looking back, it was obvious that we needed to launch more products and build for the enterprise, but we were too slow at executing on that strategy.#5: Life happens
I’ve come to believe that a big part of our jobs as founders is to manage our own emotions. It doesn’t matter how well we were doing; it never got easier. Life doesn’t stop just because we’re doing the hardest thing we’ve ever done before.
I remember how excited we were to get accepted into YC’s Winter 2012 batch. As we were launching our product into the world, living the entrepreneurial dream and sleeping and working out of our Silicon Valley hacker house, we were also experiencing the cruelness of life. In between demos and code commits, we greeted hospice care at our doorsteps. We watched our cofounder battle, and ultimately succumb, to cancer at age 29.
As our team grew to hundreds of people worldwide, it felt like sad stuff was a constant: family getting cancer, partners and parents dying suddenly and children getting terribly sick. This is the human condition. It bleeds into our startup journey, because it's impossible to separate our personal lives from our professional ones. The best we can do is to be as generous as we can for our teammates. And sometimes just being by their side and witnessing their loss is enough.Takeaways: Life is short and hard even for the most fortunate of us. And that’s why, whatever you have chosen to work on, it has to be worthy of your time here. Because if you have any success at all, it will take up at least a decade of your life. And if you’re really lucky, you get to work on it for multiple decades.
In 2014, I drove through Sand Hill Road pitching a profitable construction software startup with five million dollars in ARR and zero sales people. We received three generous term sheets within forty-eight hours and closed a Series A a half-day later. This post summarizes how we led sales as founders in the early stages of PlanGrid and shares tips that can be applied in this tough economic climate.
It is important to note that we built an easy-to-use product that solved a significant pain point. If you've already established and validated product-market fit, these tips will help you get closer to your customers and sell more effectively to them. But if you're not there yet, keep in mind that the advice I'm offering won't help you – without some semblance of product-market fit, not even the best sales leader in the world will be able to grow your company [1].
Here are five things we got right in sales:
#1: Understand how money flows.
We understood how money flowed through the companies and construction projects we were selling to. We knew that although corporate headquarters technically had a budget for IT and software, it was already maxed out to pay for legacy solutions. Construction projects have their own independent accounting silos, so we could skip the buyers at the corporate office completely [2]. We were domain experts and had been responsible for construction budgets at our previous jobs. We knew exactly which line items we could tap into. For example, ten percent of many construction budgets was slated to “random allowances” and another ten percent to “contingencies.” We targeted our end users at the individual level, folks who have never purchased software in their lives but had jobsite buying power. Our end users regularly put $500+ charges on their credit cards for construction tools and materials to get the job done. No one would blink an eye at a $50 monthly charge for our software solution. When thinking about your customers, invest time in understanding who owns what budget and who has the power to approve purchases.
#2: Write the ten-second “wow” demo script.
I’m borrowing from Apple here. PlanGrid was once a top-ten business app on iOS, and our software was preloaded on every demo iPad in Apple stores. We worked with Apple’s experts, who guided us in creating ten-second “wow” demo scripts to train their in-store sales reps on how to demo our software when a construction contractor, engineer or architect visited their stores. The most important thing we learned during this process was that there is a short window of time to secure someone’s attention. Don’t waste it. Everything you say and show during these few seconds needs to be high-value for your prospects or you will lose them. These ten-second scripts would become the foundation of our sales rep training program.
When we finally earned enough money to afford renting booths at conferences, we got creative in order to secure attention. One example was Greenbuild in 2013. We commissioned a fashion student to make a dress and a suit out of blueprints, and our colleagues volunteered to wear it [4]. They walked the conference and looked like they were part of the event. People would stop and ask to take pictures with them, and in turn they would use these opportunities to demo our product.
Field marketing was one of the most important lead generation campaigns for us. By the time I stepped down as PlanGrid’s CEO in 2019, we participated and organized over 300 events a year globally. Obviously this was all pre-pandemic, but in-person events are starting to pick back up, so get creative if you go.#4: Get prospects into the right swim lanes.
Time is the only resource we will never get more of, so we cannot let anyone — especially not a random prospect — waste our time. The average contract value of PlanGrid in the early years was $5,000. We had a highly transactional, small-deal-size business in 2014. To protect time, it was crucial for us to identify which customers were at best $500 in ARR and which ones could grow to $100,000 in ARR. If it was a $200 deal, the prospect would get an email with a link to a demo, and maybe a ten-minute phone call at the end of month to nudge them to buy. If it was a 6-figure potential deal, three co-founders would show up at their front door. We would personally train them on new features that they suggested, listen to their feedback and offer white-glove-service bug fixes on the spot. Prioritize defining the different swim lanes for prospects, and identify the right teammates that need to talk to them and when. It’s also important that swim lanes evolve as your company grows, but don’t change so rapidly that you’re constantly developing new messaging and targets. Signals and data points obtained over time will tell you what’s working and what’s not.
#5: Always know the next steps, and ask prospects for their business.This one is simple. After you’ve shown prospects what you have to offer, ask them directly what needs to happen for them to make a decision. More likely than not, you are their lowest priority, so make the process easy for them. Lead the customer after a meeting and tell them what next steps are. Schedule the meetings for them. Write sample emails they can forward to their colleagues. If they tell you they have all the information they need to make a decision, ask if they will buy today. What is the worst that will happen?
Selling to the enterprise is like a never-ending fist-to-fist combat — one that lasts for decades, if you are lucky. As a startup it is important to understand that the cost of selling to enterprises is high. A good frontline enterprise sales rep makes $200,000 per year on the low end, and you may not know if they are performing for you for a full year. They will also need a lot of support from departments that may not exist at your startup yet, such as business development, pre-sales, customer success, professional services, post-sales, demand generation, product and field marketing. Enterprise buyers love their red tape (for good reason) — security and compliance, SSO, RBAC, license management, on-prem support — the list could go on. Unless you are prepared to invest in all of these products and people from Day One, founders need to get in the ring and figure out how to fight in a way that your competition cannot. An unbelievably great team and an unbelievably great product is a good start.I’ll be writing more tips about the journey from $5 million to $100 million and $100 million to acquisition in the upcoming months.
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[1] The foundation of founder-led sales is to make sure you have a great product that solves a real pain point. I’ve coached and advised hundreds of startups during my time as a visiting partner at YCombinator. When founders lie to themselves it’s almost always over having product-market fit when they do not. Their product simply did not solve a big enough problem for people to care about. So a key question to ask yourself is: Does the problem you’ve chosen to solve hurt your user so badly that they’ll pay money to make it go away? Does that problem make their job suck so much that they’ll be a champion for you and convince their boss and colleagues to pay for it?
[2] Although we skipped the corporate buyer completely in the early years of PlanGrid to much success ($50M in ARR), we would build products for the same corporate buyers in the later years because they became the sole decision-maker for construction field software. Within a few years the category we created became a category that the corporate buyer cared about. It is completely possible to have a product-market fit one year, and lose it the next because the world, the market and the competition shifts over time.[3] There are a bunch of add-ons from renting booths at conferences. You can get the smallest bare-bones booth for $5k, then rent the carpet for the booth for another $1k, and rent an electrical outlet for another $1k — and a table and tablecloth might cost another $1k.
I started a new company called TigerEye. We’re building a sales solution that will help companies make better strategic decisions. It all sounds vague because we’re in stealth.
I want to share why I am building a new company.
After I ended my watch at PlanGrid and Autodesk in 2020, I got to work at Y Combinator for two batches. Founders would ask me questions about a problem they were experiencing, and I would answer them by sharing PlanGrid stories, expanding on the things we did right, things we got wrong and things I would do differently if given a second chance.
Everyday I spoke to smart and hungry founders and learned about industries I never even considered. I was energized by the small population of female founders disrupting consumer and health tech, but female founders building enterprise technology were scarce.
During this time, millions of women would exit the workforce to care for their families as the COVID-19 pandemic forced schools and day cares to close, driving an increase in gender disparities in the U.S. workforce. I thought about the father chasing his career while the mother was left chasing dirty diapers. I thought about the families who need to juggle jobs while caring for vulnerable or senior family members. I grieved over how a virus exacerbated our non-existent support structure for women in the workforce. I thought about how mentally and physically challenging child care and elder care is and how rarely it is openly discussed. All of it made me livid.
I took that anger and focused on building again.
Normalize women in (enterprise) CEO roles.
I’ll buy you a beer if you can name from memory female CEOs in tech on all your fingers. The people who have defied the odds and paved the way for women in enterprise today include leaders such as Carol Bartz, Ginni Rometty, Meg Whitman, Shellye Archambeau, Therese Tucker and Ursula Burns. There are a few B2B female CEOs today doing incredible work and inspiring us to build, but females in top executive positions still remain few and far between. The first step to change is acknowledgement, so let us acknowledge that in 2021 female founders secured only 2% of venture capital in the U.S.
Businesses need to run better.
We’re in the middle of multiple irreversible world crises. All businesses need to figure out how to build better and faster, with fewer resources and more compassion towards people and our planet.
After stepping down as PlanGrid’s CEO in June 2019, I helped with integration efforts into Autodesk. We replaced PlanGrid’s business point solutions to deploy the “winners” in enterprise software. I saw firsthand what using these business solutions did to our team — it slowed us down.The most surprising lesson I learned from building PlanGrid was that the best product doesn’t necessarily win in enterprise, but those with the largest sales team will. Even with a meaningful outcome, we lost in the market. A big reason why we’re building TigerEye is to build sales software to help companies with the best products win.
There is low-hanging fruit across the board in business software. And since we’re experts in building mobile enterprise software, why not help other businesses eliminate some of the bullshit so they can focus on building a better company for their team, their customers and the world.Every day, I get to work with — and learn from — colleagues and customers from all walks of life, from Boomers to Gen Z. I refuse to believe that the TikTok generation and future leaders will still be deploying legacy solutions two decades from now. There is simply no way they’ll stand for it.
If you’re in sales and want early access to TigerEye, join our waitlist.(I wrote this for YC’s Future Founders Conference for Women. I’ll add the recording when it becomes available. The actual talk I gave on November 18th should include bonus streams of unconscious thoughts and cursing, in case someone is into that.)
My parents were refugees of Communism. Wherever the line was between being poor and being homeless, my mom and dad lived just right above that line for many decades. Growing up, I watched them work seven days a week without ever complaining so my siblings and I would live a better life than they did. We didn’t have much, but there was a lot of love. All I wanted to do was make them proud to honor their sacrifice for us.
I’m rarely the smartest person in any room. I went to a state school. I liked math and architecture, so I studied to be a construction engineer. My work uniform was a hard hat, orange safety vest, and muddy boots. While I worked in construction, I saw firsthand why projects are so often behind schedule and over budget. We built PlanGrid to solve the problem that we experienced in the field.
I grew up at PlanGrid. It was the most beautiful thing to me. I loved it completely with all my heart, to an unreasonable and unhealthy degree, and I think it has to be that way for startups to work.
When I look back at our almost decade journey, however inspiring our technology was, or how impressive our growth was, the happiest memories in my heart, the only ones I’ll remember 20 years from now, are always with people. It’s an incredible feeling, building something people want, seeing their jaw drop from awe at something you’ve made for them. One of our early users told us, “after 30 years in construction.. this is the best tool ever given to me.” And nothing compares to working hard with people you trust, running at full speed towards the same mission together.
We had a reputation for being good people building good software for the construction industry. Some construction publications would refer to PlanGrid as the “Darling” of construction technology, and I remember I didn’t know how to feel about it at the time. I think I wanted to be associated with a noun that was less lovable and more fierce. But I now realize it was their way of rooting for us.
A big part of our reputation came from how we interacted with people. And it was so simple and true to who we were. We just treated others the way we wanted to be treated. We were normal, decent people who loved building things. If this is your vibe also, please don’t be afraid to show it because even in business, it resonates with people. I’m proud of the culture we built at PlanGrid.
But as high as the high moments were, there were a lot of unhappy and hard ones. And that’s just how business is — When it feels really good, it probably means something terrible is about to happen. And conversely, if it is feeling awful, it will get better. That, or it’ll feel bad a little longer, but it always vacillates back to good. I’ve come to believe that a big part of our jobs as founders is to manage our own emotions through the emotional rollercoaster called building a startup.
And I think that’s why company building isn’t for the faint of heart. It doesn’t matter how well we were doing; it never got easier. Because as we’re trying to find product-market fit, as we’re trying to get people to part with money for our product, life continues. Meanwhile, life doesn’t stop just because you're stressed out doing the hardest thing you’ve ever done before.
I remember how excited we were to get accepted into YC’s Winter 2012 batch. As we were launching our product into the world, living the entrepreneurial dream, sleeping and working out of our Silicon Valley hacker house, we were also experiencing the cruelness of life. We watched our cofounder die at 29 years old. We watched cancer eat him alive, and there was nothing we could do to help him. We felt heartbroken, angry, and confused. I remember on so many occasions; I would turn the corner in our house to find one of my co-founders, who are all tall, strong men, sobbing in a corner, mourning our best friend.
And this is the journey.
Because we weren’t unique snowflakes with this terrible thing that happened to just us. As our team grew bigger to hundreds of people worldwide, it felt like sad stuff was a constant: parents and partners dying suddenly, children getting sick, deeply tragic stories of life.
And it’s why, whatever you have chosen to work on, it has to be worthy of your time here. Because if you have any success at all, it will be at least a decade of your life. A decade of life where you are doing nothing but working on the problem you have chosen, obsessing over it and neglecting friends and family, a decade of barely taking care of yourself because there isn’t enough time to do anything but build.
We always had excellent health and dental insurance for our team. But I rarely used it. Not because I was so healthy or had great teeth, I just couldn’t find the time. So when I wasn’t CEO anymore, I finally went in to get a bunch of things checked out, including my long aching teeth I had been ignoring. My dentist found six cracked teeth, all from grinding at night. When he learned that I was a founder, he said, “that makes sense, cracked teeth from stress.” Stress messes up your body — and starting a startup will bring you to a new level of stress.
I often get asked about work-life balance.
I never figured it out. Work-life balance is such a beautiful concept in theory. You get to have your cake and eat it too. Let me give you a few examples of why it was so hard for us to find work-life balance:
When we only had months of runway left in the bank, there was no work-life balance. We had to work around the clock so that our company could survive. When we were behind on our big product launch, when we’re behind on our revenue goals, when we released nasty bugs to our users, or when our servers were down, there was no work-life balance.
And then there are unforeseen conditions. What startup included Covid19 into their new fiscal year plan. Shit seems to happen often while building a startup.
And by the way, it doesn’t matter how big your company is and how fast you’re growing. There are never enough resources. Even when we got to $100m in recurring revenue, we still didn't have enough people to build and support our customers, not enough money to invest in our business’s growth.
And then there are competitors.
Some competitors had way more of everything we did. And if they didn’t have more resources than we did, we had to assume they were working their hardest to eat our lunch and dinner. So the only thing we could do to compete was to make ourselves into multiple people, 10x if we could. An easy way to 10x ourselves was by not having a personal life and not taking care of ourselves.
It might surprise you to learn that I’m not trying to convince you not to start a startup. I only want to properly warn you about the commitment of building a startup, so you can better prepare yourself than I did.
But I lucked out. We had picked a problem to solve that we cared about. And it turns out; it is much easier to do a good job at something that we love. I loved building tools for people who take showers at night because they reminded me of my immigrant parents and how hard they worked. I believed that if our software helped them get home to their kids, even 10 minutes earlier, it was all worth it.
I think there is a balance to everything in life. I believe that for every terrible thing that happens, there is also a good side; Even tragic things like a friend who didn’t have enough time. Of course, I would much rather my friend be alive, but the good side of this incredibly tragic thing that happened was that we got a front-row view of how short life is. I remember thinking: “How lucky I am to be alive and still have time here?” A big part of me realized then that I wanted to build something beautiful for myself and in memory of my friend.
The only reason PlanGrid worked — was that we loved it, and we poured our hearts and souls into it.
If you’re thinking about starting a startup and pursuing something you love, do it! I’m so proud of you. I know how hard it can be, in particular, to feel judged for how I looked, to feel judged for being a woman. And whether sexism was something I encountered or whether it was mostly my insecurity — what I felt was real, and it was hard and painful.
But I want you to look at me as an example and trust that it is possible to overcome all of that. I’m not trying to downplay discrimination because it happens. There have been people who have said crazy things to me like: “but you’re too small to found a company”, “you’re not tall enough to be CEO”, “you’re too young”, “well you’re not too young, but you look too young”. Another CEO had advised me to “hire a professional CEO who can do my job better.”
The fact is, for every person who has ever doubted me, there were hundreds more who believed in me. They could have cared less about my gender and only judged me by my work ethics and output. I promise you there are many more good people in this world, and they have been waiting to work with you.
Building PlanGrid was one of the most rewarding, most challenging, most meaningful experiences in my life. The greatest privilege of this entire journey is the deep connections made by working in the trenches with people. Something magical happens when we trust and believe in each other on a startup journey that is impossible to do alone. It took me too many years to learn to raise my hand and ask for help, but when I finally learned to, a village of people came to my support.
I’ll close with the last conversation I had with Antoine, our co-founder and Chief Mad Scientist. I still think about it every day, and I hope it’ll be helpful for you too.
“Life is short. Take care of the ones you love. Don’t be afraid to try new things. Never do anything that makes you unhappy.”
This post is dedicated to my co-founders: Ryan Sutton-Gee, Ralph Gootee, Antoine Hersen, Kenny Stone <3
Not a lot is written about being a female founder and CEO. I used to believe that my journey as a startup founder was the same as any other founder's experience, regardless of gender, in that it is lonely and hard. I believed the same when I worked in construction. At the time, any questions about there being a difference felt deeply unnecessary to me.
For example, here is my snarky answer in 2015 at TechCrunch Disrupt: “When Tracy wakes up every morning, Tracy doesn’t think ‘Oh, I am a female.’ When I wake up in the morning I think ‘Wow, I’ve got a lot of work to do. I better get showered, caffeined up, and get my ass to work.’”
For context, I am the daughter of refugees, first to be born in America. The minority part of my identity I understood well, having witnessed my immigrant parents grinding their nose to the stone without ever complaining, so their children could have a better life. I was proud to be their child. The female part of my identity, however, was hidden under plain masculine clothes and behind a stoic demeanor. I was afraid that I wouldn’t be taken seriously as a CEO and I perceived any attention to my gender as bad.
Then, when I became pregnant in 2017, my opinion changed. Women have different lived experiences than men, and not acknowledging this would be a disservice to humanity.
On the same day I learned I was pregnant, I also learned that one of our tech executives left his laptop on his desk, and would not be coming back to work. I remember the highest level of excitement I have ever felt, finally pregnant after trying for almost a year, and within a few hours, I swung to one of my lowest moments as a CEO.
I thought that I must be the worst leader for someone to just leave me like this. That night, I vomited into my sink and cried sloppily in the dark. Someone I trusted had snuck out of responsibility in the most selfish way imaginable, and my body responded with intense physical reactions. I wondered if male CEOs would have reacted this way. I wish I knew. By morning, I kicked off an executive search, filled in as leader for the department, and announced my decision to the team. One thing I learned during this time was to not waste turbulence. As part of the shocking announcement of our executive’s sudden departure, I also made a bunch of decisions that I previously lacked the courage to make and rolled everything out at once. There were major people and product roadmap changes, budget and schedule cuts all in the span of a few weeks. Our team had many questions, followed by many emotions and opinions about our new R&D direction. Some team members, including great engineers, quit.
Emotional roller coasters seem to be law in startups, and I believe managing our own emotions is a big part of the job. What I have found is that I cannot stop myself from being human, but I can practice dialing down the duration of negative feelings like anger, fear, and sadness.
When my baby belly began to show, I told my leadership team we were expecting, and by the end of day most at the company knew too. There are no secrets in a startup. One colleague told me the next day that she knew I was pregnant because she saw me eat two bagels. That conversation made me realize that team members are always keeping an eye on their founders and leaders. In some cases, I do believe my coworkers genuinely cared for me. In most cases, I believe they were evaluating how well the company was doing based on my actions throughout the day and that factored into whether or not they should answer all the recruiters’ calls.
Three months before I was due to give birth, I got a message from the CEO of a large competitor who had enough cash to acquire us. There was M&A activity in our industry, and, I too, wanted the option for our startup to become acquired. I was to give a presentation to several of their CxOs (a strong indicator that they were not just kicking the tires). In my own office, it never bothered me that my team’s eyes would sometimes wander to my basketball shaped belly during conversation, but it did get under my skin when these strangers, who I was negotiating with, looked at my stomach during this presentation. But that was mostly my own insecurities, something I would learn to deal with.
Two months prior to giving birth, we received a disappointing M&A term sheet, so we declined. There were more problems in the company that I could no longer ignore, and because there was a baby in my belly, I could not use social drugs to escape from my stress, and was stone cold sober through all of it. I needed to make another leadership change. Some of our board directors told me: “We support your decision, but let’s wait until you come back from maternity leave”, to which I obliged. Although I understood the rationality of their advice, I felt trembling anger for not being supported in that moment. I’ve also come to hate the phrase- “bad breath is better than no breath”, because it is terrible advice. My biggest regrets in business involve keeping the wrong person in the company for too long. I knew in my stomach that it was not going to work every time, I would even dread having unproductive 1-1s with them, but I would come up with excuses like- “I know they can’t stay, but I’m so stressed out right now.” The fact is, I hired the wrong person, I failed to help them grow as a leader and I owed it to my team and company to fix my mistakes.
I went into labor the same night of our first user conference. The weeks leading up to the conference, watching our whole company burn late night candles in preparation for our new product unveiling, I wondered how many male CEOs would skip their conference for the birth of their child? I assume most would. I kept reasoning with myself that if I wasn’t pregnant, there would be no question whether I’d be there or not, so I must be there. Forcing myself to parade my 9-month pregnancy, deliver the keynote, support our team, and work the halls as the host, was my way of feeling like a superwoman, which was mostly about rubbing my own ego. I arrived home around 8pm that evening, and my water broke immediately. I would hear my son’s first cry 32-hours later.
No one told me how hard breastfeeding would be. Like clockwork, every 2-3 hours a tiny mouth latched onto me for 20 minutes, resulting in raw and bloody nipples. The amount of time and effort it requires to breastfeed doesn't stop there. You'll also need to make time to eat an extra 500 calories each day, time to pump and wait for milk to slowly drain out of each breast, and then time to clean each pumping piece thoroughly.
After the M&A deal fell through, I was concerned that two of our largest competitors were coming together. I was determined to get back to work as soon as possible and fundraise a war chest to fight back. However, being only 4 weeks postpartum, I was still healing. And by healing I mean I was still bleeding from several tears in my vagina from pushing out a baby. Even something as natural as emptying my bladder felt debilitating. When my son was 6 weeks old, I handed him over to his nanny (a vetted stranger, really) and went back to work. I wiped tears from my eyes as I drove away, convincing myself that the company needed me more than my son. In reality, waiting a few more weeks for my return would not have made a difference.
To this day, I ask myself why I rushed back to work when I wasn’t ready. And I think I was scared. Not because our business was in trouble. We had two years of runway in the bank and our interim CEO (our CFO) and the team were running the business just fine. I think I was scared of what others might think of me as a new mother and CEO, maybe because of my own insecurities, maybe because of the societal norms ingrained in me. I pressured myself into proving that I was as dedicated to PlanGrid as I always have been.
I would spend the next two months driving to VC’s offices, and down to Sand Hill Road, to secure our war chest. Despite this full schedule and constant traveling, I needed to pump milk. But I never asked to use any investor’s Mother’s Room. On some days, I would park my car on a sleepy street in Palo Alto and pump milk with a silicone hand pump in front of someone’s nice house, reading profiles of the investors in my next meeting from my iPhone. Occasionally someone would drive up, or a jogger would run by, and I would feel completely humiliated.
I’ve always hated fundraising. It's putting our hearts and souls on a platter for money and for smiling strangers to poke holes in us. However, PlanGrid could not have fueled growth the way we did without selling pieces of it to investors who took a chance on us. I often get asked about how it was to fundraise as a woman. I’ve heard awful stories firsthand from friends. Horrific stories like being offered a term sheet if sex was involved. Thankfully, that was not my experience. I believe I am in the minority.
I think there are bad apples in every industry, but it is especially prevalent in those that control so much money and power. We tried to time all of our fundraising for when we were in a position of strength with attractive revenue growth and enough money in the bank to walk away from any or no deal. I also fundraised with my co-founders, and in later rounds with my CFO. I think it is easier for predators to target their prey when they are alone. I was never alone.
After half a dozen no’s to our Series-C fundraising, and a few weeks before we planned on stopping fundraising all together, we secured a round. We then received a revised M&A offer to purchase our company at a much higher price.
Our job as founders and CEOs is to maximize all options for the company and choose the best path forward for our team and customers. A part of me wanted to stay CEO of PlanGrid forever. I grew up at PlanGrid. I watched one of my co-founders die of cancer during PlanGrid. I married another one of my co-founders and we became parents together. My self worth was completely tied to the company. PlanGrid gave me purpose and fulfillment. However, in fall of 2018, the best option for our company given the competitive and market risks, and our own internal challenges, was to sell our company to an incumbent with obvious technical synergies, for over 10x multiple on revenue. So we did. The day we announced the sale to our team was the most frightened I have ever felt in my life. I was afraid that I had let our team down by selling, but they didn’t see it that way. That night, we celebrated together.
My contract with our acquirers was set to last 18 months. The plan included 12 months to run PlanGrid as a standalone company (or try to), and 6 months to fully integrate into the mothership. Everything that made me a good founder, made me a terrible employee at a public company. I was used to having complete autonomy in leading PlanGrid. As a startup, we would make changes quickly. We could take dozens of small bets and risks every quarter. Depending on those results, we would abandon or make larger bets in the direction that was working. Risk taking is much more limited at a public company, in part because they must report to Wall Street every 3 months. At a larger company there are also more dependencies, it felt like I couldn’t sneeze without asking permission from the heads of five other departments. New leadership took good care of our team and products, and people were nice to me, but it was obvious I was unhappy there.
A few months after the acquisition, I became pregnant for the second time. And shortly after I found out, I also had a miscarriage. While with my team, I felt it slip out of me. I went to the bathroom and I knew exactly what it was. I walked back out to the group pretending as if nothing happened. For the next few months, I grieved, fighting back tears almost every hour.
The women's experience can be really hard - I went through infertility, pregnancy, birth, miscarriage all the while trying to balance being a good leader, good mother and good partner. To top it all off, I felt I had to be a version of what I thought a good male CEO was, so that I wouldn’t be judged or treated differently. It would take me years before I realized how delusional I was. I became a better and happier leader by being honest in who I was, even if it meant feeling raw heart pounding discomfort most days. And it turns out, my female identity was much more important to me than I realized going in.
The tech industry has a long way to go toward gender equality in the workplace. The first step to change is acknowledging that things need to change.
I am no longer employed by the company that acquired us. I posted on LinkedIn that my watch has ended. I have much more time to read about the world we live in and who is controlling it. When I look at leadership across companies, and leadership across countries, it looks predominantly male. And that means our world is missing out on a lot of hardworking, self-identifying women who can improve it. The problems of our time are overwhelming and massive. In the midst of a pandemic and too many crises, our women leaders are proving they are great at leading and getting things done.
I want to see a world where men and women, who make up equal halves of humanity, also make up equal halves of leadership. When that happens, I wholeheartedly believe that the entire world will benefit. We owe it to our sons and daughters to work hard to get there.
Thank you to Nina Achadjian, Maria Alegre, Andrea Barrica, Ralph Gootee, Kat Manalac, Madison McKay, Kristina Milian, Sarah Moon, and Strat Sherman for reading drafts of this.